it hit me fast

looking at pictures on andi's myspace made me come really close to crying. seeing my trace, he is saying those things now, growing. it literally breaks my heart and gives me a lump in my throat to know that i'm not there to watch him every other thursay with my dad.
seeing pics of her and holden. omg that's even worse. i feel like i'm failing you as a sister because i'm not there to here you talk late at night about your worries, doubts, excitement, butterflies, etc.
i'm so sorry baby girl. i'm crying here in the office, i hope no residents or my superviors walk by to see the wreck i'm in right now.
I miss mira and sam. the sillines. lost episodes late at night that i never watched but i knew were playing in the den.

mom and dad's rosaries and garage sale shopping early saturday mornings....ouch that one really hurts

I do love it here but it depresses me when i don't find things out about the house or family for days or weeks.
i miss my house. my dogs :'(.

matthew, i hate not seeing him for lunch. i miss the perfect drive to his house. the smell and feel of his home. lady, yeaa i miss her too. but my matter i'm not right without.

oh goodnes it is sooooo good that tomorrow most of these things will be fixed. just tell my house and the people that are usually there that little miss B is fine but a little homesick :(((

New beginnings...how cliche

Life is pretty darn awesome right now. Me and my matter are loving each more than ever and growing constantly. I see my sisters tomorrow and get to spend the day with them. My parents love and miss me. I have amazing friends on staff. Training and most of check-in is finished. I have a meeting with the equestrian coach on friday. I am in the process of changing my major to Multidisiplinary Studies. My car works and I can drive it. It has been raining. I am madly in love.
I can start attending daily mass and student mass again. I'm listening to some pretty awesome oldies. I love how my room is decorated. I have about $650 on my meal plan for this semester (:D). I love God and he loves me.

Thanks for reading me and smiling at how well my life is.
See you soon I hope :)

binki stinky