I am down again. Yesterday I was content and okay. Today, right now any way I am upset. I hate this. I hate how I feel. I hate how I can't just drive because I would be breaking the law. I'd like to get dressed up and make myself look decent, drive somewhere in town to get someting new (a shirt, purse, jeans), eat an entire large funnel cake by myself, and then do whatever else comes to mind. Merely because I want to and because I don't think anyone can help me right now. I would also like to just be at home with my parents on a Saturday morning alone. I wake up and look out the front door to see them with rosaries and a prayer book sitting in those white chairs. I love you mom and dad more than I tell you. I love spoiling them. Getting my dad a cold drink while he is working on the yard, moving the fan to where it hits him perfectly, getting on to him for spending to much time in the heat, ironing his clothes, rubbing lotion on his feet. Telling my mom all of my problems, concerns, fears, excitements, joys, reading spirtiual messages to her or from her, love her like no one else, clean for her, try to cook for her.
I feel better now and I just realized that paragraph had a ton of commas,,,,,,
Thank you for reading this :)
Bink
2 comments:
You know (and I'm sure that you do), when the world gets you down and you get caught up in the people, the words, the commotion, the chaos, and you don't know what to do next... Take a few moments and just... look up, be still, and breathe... He will take care of us. Sometimes, the reason for God's challenges is not simply to overcome them, but rather, to find Him. It's like your sister tells me... God gives us opportunities to enact His will. A lot of times (and I, more than most), we DO get caught up in the superficiality of the world and its calamity. We get down, we get depressed... but that's only because we forget to put Him before all things. We forget that Faith not only means that we believe in God, but also that He will take care of us. If nothing else, ask someone to pray with you... Matthew 18:20 says, "For where two or three are gathered in my name, I am there among them." That is the power of Prayer. It washes us with His blessings. I hope everything is okay, Bink. If not, I know it will be.
Love,
Samy
write some more. please :)
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